I promised to be easy on myself with the resolutions. If I didn’t get settled into them right away, its no big deal. Well, we’re 11 days into the new year and I’m not getting much of anywhere. I’m still eating poorly, or not really eating much at all is more like it. Haven’t been to the gym yet. Haven’t even been on my bike lately. I’ve just been tired.
I did get the Christmas decorations put away. My dad was betting I wouldn’t do it until February, because he’s a nice guy like that. I still need to clean the house though. I do a little at a time and then my back starts to hurt so I have to take a break. It really doesn’t help much with the motivation to get things done.
I’ve been kind of moody lately with all of the above and some other stuff. Some of it is hormonal I’m sure. Jon just started school to go along with working full time. He’s stressed out, and that stresses me out. Last night I could just feel the stress coming off of him. That fed into mine and made me such a mess that all I could do was cry when I got home. I’m so worried about him. I just want him to be happy and I know there’s not much I can do to help. I also found out that he doesn’t feel comfortable at my house and I don’t know exactly what to do to fix that. It hurt so much to hear that he’s not comfortable here. Part of it is my dad, but there’s not much I can do about that.
Now I’ve got myself all teary and worked up. There’s just so much going on in my mind and I’m worried about so many people. One of my friends broke up with her fiancé but is still living with him because she has no job and a pain condition that is keeping her from working. She has nowhere to go so she’s just stuck there. I know its hard on her and that makes me feel bad. She also recently lost her kitten. He wandered off and never came home. Another friend is having to have his old dog put down, which makes me sad. Every time I hear about one of my friends having a crisis I take all of those feelings to heart and end up dealing with them like they’re my own.
I suppose I should go try to eat some dinner. Maybe food in my tummy will make me feel better.