There’s a pounding rain falling on the roof. I love that sound. Its so relaxing and refreshing. I wish I could record it and play it from speakers in the ceiling.
I think my dad is starting to feel the side effects of radiation. He’s tired and acts like he doesn’t feel well. He’s supposed to have two more weeks of it too. He’s been saying he’s not sure he’s going to make it. He’s coughing a lot too, which is an unsettling noise. Coughing through a hole in your throat, especially coughing hard, makes a very loud, eery sound. He’s smoking quite a bit. I just don’t get it.
I was looking over some blog posts from earlier this year. Much better written, they include pictures. I can’t remember the last time I picked up my camera. There’s nothing inspiring to me to photograph. I’m just not finding any pleasure in life or things I used to enjoy. Its hard to cook dinner because I can never think of anything. Really all I do these days is sit around. I’m in awful pain too. My back, my hips. Sometimes when I’m walking I get this twinge of pain in my back or hip and my leg goes numb. Probably not a good sign.
I had in mind a happier post the other day, but not I can’t remember what it was about. I’ll try to come up with something. I’mjust so not in the mood most of the time.
Hope you are well, dear readers.