The past few days are a bit of a blur. I’ve actually gotten some sleep, as long as I leave the tv on, but I’m still feeling pretty drained.
Yesterday I made final arrangements for my mom. The price is absolutely insane. She’d chosen cremation, so I didn’t have to pay the entire burial fee at once, and couldn’t do it anyway. However, she can’t be placed until its paid in full. So I can’t really lay her to rest for a while. We won’t be having a funeral either because of cost and lack of family.
Her death notice was in the paper today. Rather surreal. Its not a full obituary, though. I can’t believe how much they charge for those. I can’t believe how much is charged for all of it! I can’t imagine how it would have been had she had a traditional burial. I’m going to pre-pay for mine so all of the cost doesn’t fall on Zach.
I’m feeling sad and lonely these past few days. I expect that will continue for a while.