I’m not much of a crier anymore. I think I either a) cried out all of my tears several years ago when I was going through a mini hell, or b) am so numb from medication that I just don’t cry that much.
If I do cry, its because I’m physically and mentally exhausted and frustrated over something, Or I’m physically and mentally exhausted and start thinking about being alone. I don’t cry over movies, or books. I used to, but I just don’t have the emotion to give it anymore.
I’m trying to remember the last time I cried. I can’t, though I could cry now because that exhaustion and frustration are pretty high today. Bad night last night, people.
It seems the only way I get things done is to challenge myself to do them, and possibly offer myself an award at the end. One thing I’ve been meaning to do is listen to my iTunes library beginning to end. I have SO much music because I buy stuff on a whimsy because it seems like I’d like it because of the genre, or someones recommendation. There are 6007 items, 16.4 days, and 42.99GB of music to go through. Starting about five minutes ago. I have no idea how long this is going to take (I’m not sitting here listening for 16.4 days). but I will keep you updated. So far today, Ah-ha and now on AFI.
Another challenge I decided to set for myself, and this one is much more important, is to get to the gym at LEAST five days a week. I’ve been going since May, working with a trainer once a week. I’ve not made the progress I really should have. I’ve got to take this more seriously, so I am. If I go at least five days a week through the beginning of December, I’m going to treat myself to a facial.
You heard it here folks, five days a week. Can I do it?